Friday, April 10, 2009

Fight?

Here is one of those stress relief blogs.

I think Grace and i are in a fight. I cant tell though, she's stopped talking to me. I feel awful like I'm making her angry. :(

Right now she is at University of Houston with a guy named Bijan, he is nineteen, her ex on and off for six years now, plays the drums, and works out with her. Safe to say I'm a bit jealous.

While we were texting:

Taylor: What are you up to? :D

Grace: Going to UH

Taylor: is it safe for me to text you while your driving?

Grace: its cool I'm in traffic

Taylor: What do you do there? (because I have never been)

Grace: UH taylor UH. I hang out, drum for hours, make music, work out, and talk. (she says like im an idiot)

Taylor:you drum?

Grace:Ya its just a thing between me and him

Taylor:oh um how old is he?

Grace: 19

Taylor:not really the number i was hoping for, I wanted him to be 30 and fat

Grace: Why do you say that?

(as i fumble to think of a appropriate response)

Grace:You realize He's my ex of like off and on like 6 years right?

Taylor:I cant say I'm not jealous, we don't have anything like drumming or 6 years of history, I wish we had that

Grace:why

Taylor:I feel bad when i talk like this maybe i should just shut up

Grace:sorry

(as i mope)

Grace:You just have to understand no one will have a relationship with me like Bijan does

(that broke my heart)

Taylor:Uh that sucks that you don't have that kind of faith in me

Grace:what

Taylor:Its not that this guy is closer to you than me its that you don't think we could be like that

(after about 10 minutes)

Taylor:Are you ok?

(after another 10 minutes)

Taylor:Have fun

Grace:Thanki (pretty sure she meant thanks)

Taylor:Why were you ignoring me?

(15 minutes later)

Taylor:I didn't ask that so i could be ignored

Grace:We're watching a movie I'll ttyl OK

Taylor:(infuriated) Oh sorry i guess


Now i feel bad, and she hasn't tried to contact me in 2 hrs. She is out there with some guy and i just pissed her off...that is the crap they make movies about. She is making my life dramatic. I don't know, I'm a wuss, maybe I'm just worrying about nothing, maybe I'm the jealous type that should just shut up and go with the flow. Whatever I'll get over it, I always do anyway. I'm sorry

[Later edit] now i've done it, its 1:00 and she sends the most angry message i've ever seen...I feel like im in shock, my eyes are glazed, my heart stone, and my mind thrown into a spiral of shame and humiliation...I'm gonna go cry now

And just so this blog wasn't a total downer, thanks to Alec I found this...enjoy

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